Change. Change is beautiful, needed to grow and probably the most terrifying experience one can go through. Mostly we feel there is little control over the change, but truth is we do have control over the entire experience. We have control on how we handle each new, unexpected lesson.
I’ve always been a fan of change, I thrived on starting something new. Made me feel alive & if something major in my life wasn’t a chaotic changing mess, I felt stagnant. That my time of arrival had come and gone and I had not savored that final moment before life kicked in and everything was set around a routine.
My ability to create change is different now. I have other people to consider. I can no longer decide to move to a different city at a whim without major repercussions given the fact I am the breadwinner of my small family. I’ve accepted this and have taken a bit of comfort in my responsibility, but now and then (more now) I still get a huge bug up my butt for change. So I change what I can, whether it be my diet, certain aspects of my routine or the color of my hair.
Recently I’ve decided to change my perspective. I tend to look forward and dwell in the past. Until recently. I’ve been blindsided by perspective as I have this great friend who has helped me learn to simply be. Helped me realize that even though our pasts shape who we are now and our future is definitely going to come, it is who we are now in this moment that makes the difference. By just enjoying what we have here is all we actually need and everything else will fall in its right place. I always thought I was present, but this friend of mine had truly brought me into right now. By allowing myself to be, I laugh so much more and enjoy each piece of time that I’m given and I couldn’t be happier.
Oh & I changed the color of my hair too.
4 Comments
July 6, 2009 at 5:00 am
Ooooh! You coming tonight? Will I get to see the new hair color?
July 6, 2009 at 5:42 am
love it
July 6, 2009 at 5:58 am
Interesting post. Can totally relate to needing change to feel like you’re living. Since I can’t move around anymore, I usually change jobs, change interests, etc. I haven’t changed the hair color in a few years… maybe I need to do that, too! Can’t wait to see it.
July 8, 2009 at 3:33 pm
Very nice, especially this part “it is who we are now in this moment that makes the difference. By just enjoying what we have here is all we actually need and everything else will fall in its right place. I always thought I was present, but this friend of mine had truly brought me into right now. By allowing myself to be, I laugh so much more and enjoy each piece of time that I’m given and I couldn’t be happier.”
I so want to get to that point. I love the way you think, you are awesome!
p.s. I googled you!! ;-p